Today 9-11

September 11th !!!! (Yes- of course I had to post today!)

Just a few thoughts on the day itself!

I never even thought about the fact that September 11th was 911, until September 11,2001.
I know (atleast) four people born on September 11th. (Happy Birthday Randy, Maggie, Kenneth- and my little man Jordan)
September 11th- honestly use to not mean too much to me...

Now- September 11th!

I've been thinking all morning about Jordan, about my family- the love we all share! How things might have been different if Jordan were here with us! He would have been Eight today! That just seems CRAZY! Who would he have looked like now? (He looked like both Presley and Jake when he was born.. All of my children looked very similar!) Would he have Presley and Jake's easy going personalities, or would he be a wild man like Lil' O? Would I be picking clothes and toys up after him too, or would he have been Mommy's little helper? It's really hard to wonder what would have been- since he was only with us for 14 short hours. It's does bring a smile to my face though- knowing he would have somehow been the perfect combination of the three.

I have already shed a tear today- For my husband! As I watched channel 4 news and saw the Honor Guard for his Fire Department honoring the lost FireFighters from 8 years ago. I'm so proud of you! I will never forget the tears streaming from your eyes and the horror on your face as we watch the first and second towers collapse and you lost over 300 "brothers and sisters" who so Unselfishly gave their lives! I cry anytime I think about their lives being cut short Honoring their country and protecting those that they didn't even know. I wish TODAY I could hug all their family members and tell them how much each and everyone of their lives will weigh on my heart for EVER! I also think about the pilots and flight attendants who lost their lives just doing their jobs-how scary it must have been for them- for their passengers. Today reminds me that my life and the saddness I feel from this very day is just a hidden speck from the great pain this nation still feels.

Today also marks one year since Jerry's mom was admitted into the hospital Her cancer was not responding to treatment anymore. Last year right about this time I was sitting in a car with my Dad and Melinda (My mom and dad's realtor) eating lunch when Carol called me to tell me where she was. I honestly didn't know how serious it really was one year ago today- but she only lived one more month. Carol passed away on Oct. 11th 2008. The saddness and pain from that month are still so fresh in my mind. My husband losing a parent, my kids losing their Grandma (who they were extrememly close to), and me losing a Very Dear Friend (and my mother in law.)

Today- September 11, 2009- I just want to have some quiet time, reflect, pray, and keep thanks in my heart for all those out there serving for my freedom. Today will be a good day!

In Jordan's Memory- Please say a prayer for Your family and tell each of them TODAY- how much they truly mean to you!!!